Trust

I trust God to take care of me. I trust that God has everything all worked out. Today though, I just want to know what to do. Do I leave my home because my husband told me to, or do I stay?  I want to be able to met him for dinner and ask him what does he want me to do and get an audible answer.  I don't want a feeling, a song, a sermon, I want him to tell me what to do, him self face to face.The more I think about this the more emotional I get.  I don't want to leave, I want my husband, But he has been telling me to leave for months now, and just now do I realize that he is serious.  Oh Lord, what am I to do?  God knows the questions that are in my head, God knows my worries. I trust God, but I do not trust my own decisions.  "For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways," declares the LORD. Isaiah 55:8 nasb So do I stay and fight, do I leave and honor his wishes, or do I crawl in a hole and cry? I chose the last, its the easiest. Yes this post is a downer, I promise sad posts will be very few. Thanks for reading!  God Bless!

A Very Tiny Word

I have been reading a book called The Resolution for Women by Priscilla Shirer. In her book she asks a question, and the question I did not know how to answer.  So I did what I do when I'm not sure on something, I start to write, and as I wrote, God lead me to the answer.
   The question was: "Record your thoughts regarding this statement: "Sometimes the best, most empowering word you can learn to utter is no.""
  No, No, If I say NO, no one will like me, If I say NO, no one will ask me again, If I say NO, I won't feel important, If I say NO, I'll miss whats going on. So I think that the most destructive reason is, is that I won't feel important.  Lets rest on that for  a moment, am I doing things for the Glory of God, or am I doing things for the Glory of ME? Wow this really is a gut check moment.  The Bible says and Jesus commanded us to die daily. KILL our FLESH DAILY, and here I am wanting to feel important.  I have noticed that like now, I have so many pokers in the fire that none of them are really doing their job.  They are just getting tangled up and not being effective.  Time slots on a schedule doesn't mean that I can do it, that is what I am beginning to realize. I am beginning to wonder, if I pick my yes's and give them my all, then won't the result be better? Rather saying yes to everything and not having enough for anything, especially my family. If I half way do everything, I'm not using the full potential that God has given me, and Most importantly, I'm not bringing Glory to GOD. What Blessing am I Keeping from others by not being FULLY prepared? What blessings am I keeping from my self by not fully preparing.  Wow, that really Smacks me in the face.  How dare I keep someone from being blessed.
  So I need to sit down and really look at what I'm doing, and prune the areas that I can fully see that God isn't blessing.  I need to give more to my family and more to the chosen few that I can handle. Saying yes to everyone doesn't make me important, it makes me stressed, it causes problems in my marriage, which in turn, make me very unhappy! So which is it, do we want to be Unhappy Important people or Joyful Servants of God? My pick folks, is, Joyful Servant of God!

  All of that from the very tiny word NO!